Power Curve

Thanks for joining me for another edition of the SerenityThroughSweat blog. This last week has been all about getting over the case of the cooties as a family, and it reminded me of an old aviation lesson.

Learning how to fly is both art and science. You can learn and apply without getting too deep into the math and engineering side if you are so inclined, but where is the fun in that.  For me, the math and science made it real and added to my ability to process the phenomena I was experiencing in the plane.

One of those phenomena is the aircraft’s position at any given time along the power curve.  The power available curve (or thrust available curve, the difference is important but beyond the scope of today’s discussion) is relatively straight forward. The engine is capable of producing different amounts of maximum power based on engine specifications as well as environmental factors like temperature, pressure, and altitude.

The power required curve is a combination of the different types of drag that the aircraft must overcome based on its particular flying conditions. Some drag is based on pure speed, some is based on how much lift is produced.

When both curves are graphed together (power required vs power available) the image is a power envelope. This envelope allows us to determine scenarios (in this case environmental and airspeed) and how much excess power the aircraft has. How much more power it is capable of producing than what it needs.

Notice at a certain point in the graph, it actually requires more power, (and significantly more power for that matter) to fly a slower airspeed. This is denoted on the graph as the region of reversed command and is also known as flying behind the power curve.

Behind the power curve, is where I found myself in recovery from the cooties. I wasn’t moving as fast, or getting as much done, but It felt like I needed way more power to do it. I was moving a lot slower, but my engine felt like it was closer to red line than it ought to have been.

As the week progressed, I started to move out of the region of reverse command and get back ahead of the power curve. My power envelope and “excess power” expanded for things like resuming training and the extra attention and patience that El Duderino and Speedy often demand.

Obviously the cooties were a significant environmental factor that put me behind the power curve, but I was thinking about other times I felt that way. Whether it was the Doldrums, over training, poor dietary choices, jealousy, anxiety, nervousness or any of the other negative emotions that can drain excess power.

There are lots of ways to put ourselves behind the power curve, and while an aircraft can and will fly there, it isn’t the most efficient or the most comfortable place to fly. It is important to understand how and why to operate behind the power curve, and it is just as important to know how to get back out in front of it.

I’m thankful I was able to support my family and recover while on the backside of the power curve. And I’m even more thankful to be back on the other side and back to pushing up the power.

Thanks for joining me, stay safe and stay sweaty my friends.

Cooties

Thanks for joining me for another edition of the SerenityThroughSweat blog.  This week I think the cooties might have finally caught up to my family and I.

We should have the test results back in a few days but my wife and I have taken turns with fever, chills, headache, and sinus congestion.  Speedy and El Duderino have both showed similar although thankfully less severe symptoms.

Admittedly, riding 18 and change miles on zwift with the beginnings of a sinus headache and following it up with a few glasses of wine might not have helped.

Figure 8’s through watopia

The next morning when I couldn’t clear my left ear and the sinus headache was in full swing, the 1.1 mile swim date with my wife didn’t do me any favors either.

It is hard to stop the momentum from a full training plan, especially one that is supposed to be peaking, as opposed to being sidelined.

I was willing to look past a few of the more subjective and intuitivemetrics of how I was feeling, as well as some of the more objective ones (like increased body temp and respiration rate) in the name of a training plan. The results were probably not advantageous.

Thankfully no signs of respiratory decline

I’m grateful that my biggest concern is how I will bounce back for competition. I know that not everyone’s run in with the cooties is so favorable.

I’m grateful that I can be an effective father/husband/provider while still in cootie recovery mode.

I’m grateful that I have taken my own advice to stockpile fitness for times of trouble. I hope that my stockpile pays dividends as the calendar closes is on race day.

I’ve talked ad nauseum about how SerenityThroughSweat makes me a better, calmer version of myself. How engaging a strenuous physical activity pushes on the pain receptors, enabling the pleasure centers to have their turn in the aftermath.

The cooties have taken this option off the table. So not only are my wife and I not feeling so hot, but I think I’m in a (at least short term) below baseline hormonal state.

I’m reminded the quote from Fred Jung played by Ray Liotta the movie Blow “sometimes you’re flush, and sometimes your bust. When you’re up it’s never as good as it seems, and when you’re down you never think you’ll be up again. But life goes on”

Thanks for joining me, stay safe and stay sweaty my friends.

Under Pressure

Thanks for joining me for another edition of the SerenityThroughSweat blog. I’m sitting post run in my hotel room in Asheville on what could be my last layover in a while, and I wanted to share my thoughts with you.

I was drifting in and out of attention on the van ride to the hotel last night. I was on my phone trying to plan out my running route, when I caught the tail end of that familiar Queen and Bowie bass beet over the van radio. The words washed over me knowing this could be me last trip, and expecting a furlough notice any day, “this is our last dance, this is ourselves under pressure”

Hanging at the beach with Speedy

First off, I love my job, I’m grateful to be here, and I’m even more grateful that I knew this could be my last dance. Back in March, I got in an argument with the captain I flew with right at the end of the last rotation I would fly before lockdown. I didn’t know at the time that I would be out of the cockpit for an uncertain length of time, but I probably could have been a better version of myself if I had known.

Going in to this trip knowing that there is a good chance I don’t fly next month, and a good chance I get furloughed in October (I received my furlough notice along with 1940 other pilots a few minutes ago) I was primed to appreciate all of it (good and bad) with that knowledge ahead of time.

It’s hard to see past the built in endings in anything. I remember crying while hugging my coach and my mother after my last wrestling match, not so much because I was sad, but because there is an emptiness left in the wake of mission completion. I remember the same emotions, crying alone in my hotel room after I finished Ironman FL.

I went on to coach wrestling and started Brazilian Jiu Jitsu, and I continue training for and competing in triathlons, so they weren’t true endings, more like page breaks. But, there is still an emptiness especially in the immediate aftermath that is, I believe, unavoidable.

Hanging at the beach with El Duderino

I’m fighting those same emotions and fighting back tears writing this now. I know (or strongly believe anyhow) that as a relatively young man this is not an ending, but just a page break in my career. Objectively, I understand this, but it provides little comfort to my short term feelings of emptiness.

If you’ve followed the blog for any length of time (thank you), I’ve been a preacher (for lack off a better term) of strengthening mental, physical, and emotional well-being, as a way to be better prepared no matter what situations you encounter. I feel blessed that my biggest concern is how much I will miss flying and how it has become a part of me, rather than my ability through flying to fulfill more base needs for my family (ie food on the table, and a roof over head)

My family and I will be fine. In the grand scheme of things this will be a story we tell years from now in cockpits and at dinner parties. But in the short term, where page breaks seem like cliffs, emotions can run high, molehills can be turned into mountains.

Whatever may come over the next few months or years, I hope that I have prepared myself and my family to the best of my ability, for the challenges ahead. I hope that new passion and warmth fills in the emptiness that these events leave in their wake. I hope I am able to have the same appreciation throughout my career, as I have for this potential last(for a while anyway) flight. I hope that I can enjoy what may be my last dance, and that my family and I can live well, under pressure.

Morning miles along the French broad river in Asheville

Thanks for joining me, stay safe and stay sweaty my friends.

Knowledge and Worth

Thanks for joining me for another edition of the SerenityThroughSweat blog. I get a lot of time on layovers to catch up on my podcasts, and a quote from a recent JRE episode stood out to me. It seemed extremely relevant to the message of this blog as well as a situation many of us will find ourselves in over the coming months.

I believe it was James Lindsay in JRE episode #1501 (but I could be wrong sometimes episodes blend together in my mind) who said “your knowledge is only worth what you can build with it”

El Duderino playing in the waves with friends

My first instinct was the parallel between the rising cost of college and a large number of liberal arts degrees that are given out at significant cost, while the owners of those degrees struggle to find meaningful employment.

The question becomes what was the cost of those degrees, what was the cost of the knowledge gained, and what is each worth? I have separated those ideas on purpose because there is a distinction.

Bike path stroll with Speedy and El Duderino

The degree cost can be almost entirely accounted for monetarily. How much money was spent between classes, room and board, book, etc… The worth of that degree is difficult to measure but I would say it’s value is what you are able to do with it that you would be unable to do without. Some jobs require a 4 year degree, some offer significant pay raises for a 4 year degree. You can then make your own decision on whether or not the degree was “worth” it.

Knowledge on the other hand doesn’t really cost anything (or at least significantly less in monetary terms. There are countless resources for free classes from top universities, free books, lectures, and presentations on a never ending array of subject matter. The cost is your time, effort, and energy. (And money if you are going the university route)

The worth of that knowledge, as the quote so eloquently put, is worth what you can build with it. This sounds to me like a fancy way of saying you get out what you put in. Just because you have the knowledge doesn’t necessarily mean you have the skill, ability, and determination to apply it. That doesn’t make the knowledge worthless, but it does significantly change its valuation.

As an athlete and a martial artist, it is very easy to get to the truth of this concept. Just because you know a technique doesn’t mean you can successfully use it. That knowledge is is not worthless, but it’s worth is increased by practice and application. Just because I watch the UFC and I can identify techniques and strategies (knowledge), doesn’t mean I can jump in the cage and compete. (Worth)

Changing gears, Covid-19 had already ravaged large portions of the economy and will continue to do so. Certain sectors, anything requiring physical contact or large public gatherings, have been hit particularly hard. People in those sectors (myself included) will likely be forced to pivot at least temporarily to other forms of employment. When we do, what will be able to build with the knowledge we have accrued?

Thanks for joining me, stay safe and stay sweaty my friends.

This week in SerenityThroughSweat, barefoot beach miles in the panhandle, both boys enjoy the bike path and the beach, and catching up with college buddies on a layover.

Redefine Resilience

Thanks for joining me for another edition of the SerenityThroughSweat blog.  With all of the upheaval in the economy and especially the aviation industry I’m constantly looking for information to help chart the best course forward.  I found this quote from Delta CEO  Ed Bastian on a CNN business interview lined up well with the overall message of the blog and wanted to discuss it.

“This will be the crisis that will define Delta. We have a real opportunity to get through this crisis as a more resilient airline, I think resiliency is going to be something that is redefined across corporate America and our society – resiliency, both financially and with our health, as well as stability of our business practices and business models.”

Speedy loves bath time

There is a lot going on in that quote to unpack; resilience, opportunity, financials, health.  I’m less concerned with business practices and models, and more concerned with how each of those apply to us as individuals and families.

I’ve talked before about one silver lining to Covid-19, is the ability to reset the system and redefine daily routines. (Routine). So what is resilience, and what should we be redefining it to be going forward.

El Duderino getting his mobility work in

Resilience is the capacity to recover quickly from difficulties.  Again, that seems like a lot to chew on because recover is different in so many scenarios. Maybe you got Covid, your overall level of health prior, would partially dictate your resilience and ability to recover.  But does recover mean the virus is gone, or all the complications from the virus are gone, or maybe you have it but can still function day to day?

The same sort of mental puzzle can be applied to financial resilience.  Maybe you had a good job and even a rainy day fund prior to Covid-19.  That would be a starting point of financial strength and resilience.  What if that job was in an industry that is totally shut down (cruise ships, bars, live events, travel) and your rainy day fund is now dry? What does your capacity for recovery look like now?

El Duderino, giving me some suitcase packing tips

This is something I have grappled with over the past few weeks as a pilot with uncertain future employment.  I’m in good health and working on it every day, I live within my means and make good financial decisions, but my capacity to recover quickly from this difficulty will be tested.

As is often the case taxonomy and diction are important.  Everything I focused on above was a tangible asset. Health (measured in metrics like heart rate, blood pressure, H1ac) a job, a bank account.  And while those things definitely add to my capacity to recover, they are all in some sense finite. Capacity, capability, ability to recover, will be largely determined by intangible, and less finite personal resources, especially the longer this pandemic troubles us.

Stroller running with El Duderino

Perseverance, discipline, creativity, ingenuity, and some good old fashioned SerenityThroughSweat, these are all intangible, inexhaustible, and will help foster resilience through this crisis.

So, if we are going to redefine resilience, let’s include those tangible and finite assets that affect our mental, physical, and financial well being.  But let’s not forget the less tangible and trending towards infinite ones as well.

There has never been a better time to take up practices that support overall well-being.  There has never been a better time to set up or reevaluate a budget.  There has also never been a better time to pivot, thinking about the world that will emerge from this crisis, and learn a new skill that will serve you regardless of what comes next.

Thanks for joining me, stay safe and stay sweaty my friends.

Exposure

Thanks for joining me for another edition of the SerenityThroughSweat blog. Today I want to talk about exposure. Not in the sense of contact with a disease, but rather contact with each other and with our ideas.

Regardless of your risk aversion and where you fall on the stay at home spectrum, all of us have been seeing a lot less of each other recently. Technology has made this the best time ever to have to be quarantined, but there are still considerable side effects from our lack of exposure to one another.

Preflight abnormality

Just like or immune system grows stronger by exposure to various microbes, our minds grow stronger by exposure to ideas. Obviously books, the internet, and most forms of media are still up and running, but humans are social creatures who are meant to interact. A large portion of those interactions has been removed, and thus a large portion of the ideas we share with each other.

I didn’t realize how much I was missing this exposure until I got back to work. I was far from solitary confinement, in fact as a pilot, this was probably the most consecutive nights I’ve spent with my wife ever. But all of the other human interaction and exchanges had been removed.

July 4th rooftop laps

Most of the captains I fly with are at very different points in their life. Most have grown kids out of the house, some have grand kids. Most differ politically, religiously, and seldom enjoy the same hobbies as I do. But spending time with them, being exposed to their ideas, their story, and their experience, is helpful if I am willing let it be.

Sometimes it is seeing a situation and thinking, I hope I don’t handle it that way when I’m a captain. Sometimes it is an attitude or character attribute to be admired or one to be avoided. Sometimes it is a political or scientific idea so crazy you just have to laugh. The only way to test your own ideas and grow a more robust perspective, is to be exposed to those things in others listening openly and earnestly.

Stroller running with El Duderino

I’m grateful to be getting back to flying, and while my wife and I are both anxious about the additional social interactions, (especially with speedy still only three months old), I’m very grateful for the exposure.

Thanks for joining me, stay safe and stay sweaty my friends.

Speedy working on his Superman pose

Idle Hands

Thanks for joining me for another edition of the SerenityThroughSweat blog.  We all know the saying “idle hands are the devil’s playthings” and I think that takes on a new meaning under the lense of what we are dealing with now as a nation.

I’ve always been someone who struggles to find calm in stillness.  My serenity, as it were, has always come through sweat. Whether it is physical exercise, a complex problem that needs to be worked out, or just projects around the house, my mood is always improved when I am in motion and feel like I have accomplished something that day.

For the last three months prior to my return to work, I was very fortunate to spend quality time home with my wife and two sons. That said, I think every parent can empathize with the feeling of being busy all day with basic family needs, but not “getting anything done”. I think this is especially true for people who tend to be very task/mission oriented. (Read pilots)

So, on my last overnight visiting my Father on his farm in PA, I was delighted to feel like I could do a normal days work, and complete some of those tasks in order to satiate that mission oriented personal drive.

Humans are designed to move, designed to solve problems, and build and create. When we these don’t occur naturally as part of our existence, we artificially manufacturer them. How many problems has stay-at-home created over the past few months that are really just manufactured problems of circumstance, rather than true issues.

I should be clear this is not a post about political protest. Protest in general is a noble and important mission and as a mission oriented person, that is a path I respect. I’m referring to the astounding numbers of people who went from moving from task to task with some general purpose (normally providing for themselves and/or their family and contributing to society) to being forced to stay at home, idle.

It may take a while before we start seeing the full effects of all those idle hands, but that will be a significant factor as we continue to analyze the effects of both Covid-19, as well as the unintended consequences of the combative measures taken against it.

Thanks for joining me, stay safe and stay sweaty my friends.

This week’s SerenityThroughSweat, working on the farm with my dad, finding fitness in hotel rooms with gyms closed, and some sweaty miles over the causeway in midday Sarasota.

Quality Adjusted Life Year

Thanks for joining me for another edition of the SerenityThroughSweat blog. With COVID-19 numbers flaring up in many places around the country, a return to “normal” still seems a ways off.  As we all adjust to a new “normal” I wanted to dig in to  Quality of life or QOL and Quality Adjusted Life Years or QALY.

Quality of life is a term that gets kicked around they pilot group a lot.  It is an extremely broad reaching term with very individualized metrics. I’m it’s most simplistic terms, QOL is the standard of health, comfort, and happiness experienced by an individual or group.

Up close and personal with “scoopy” the excavator on our morning run.

Qualify adjusted life year is an economic term.  It is used to quantify disease and treatment in terms of both quantity and quality of life saved.  QALY gives us a metric by which we can evaluate decisions about our health and well being for the future.

The two terms have some common ground, but the differences are important.  For example QALY is measured on a scale from 0-1. 0 being dead, and 1 being a single year of perfect health.  Quality of life on the other hand, encompasses not only health, but happiness and comfort.  In other words, you could have a perfect quality adjusted life year (healthy) with lack luster quality of life (stressed, grieving, generally unhappy, etc…)

Covid-19, brings with it some pretty drastic negative consequences, but it also gives us a unique opportunity that otherwise wouldn’t have ever materialized for most of us.  The opportunity to completely rewrite our daily routines from scratch while reevaluating our priorities in order to maximize our QOL and our QALYs.

It is easier said than done, and change is never easy especially in times of great uncertainty. The first step is to identify priorities, and realign around them. Ideal QOL is going to look different for everyone because there is no one size fits all for things like happiness and comfort, but health and general well-being is pretty universal. (And a favorite taking point of this particular blog)

Speedy starting to interact more

Personally, uncertainty around my job status as Covid-19 continues to ravage the travel sector, has thrown my stress levels out of whack.  But sleep, diet and exercise (with the exception of a new baby) are largely within my control.

My pre Covid routine included a lot of Jiu Jitsu, but that isn’t an option for me and my family right now. Instead I’ve leaned in to what I do have available, kettlebells, sandbags, running shoes and a jogging stroller. Since I do most of the cooking in the house I can prioritize fresh produce and balanced home cooked meals (most of which are even toddler approved). On the sleep side, Speedy has started to put together reliable seven hour stretches giving me wife and I a chance to recharge.

A hot Monday afternoon run during the kid’s naptime. FL summer is here.

How much of our pre Covid routine was helping us live a better QOL and have more QALYs? How much of it was adding stress, reducing sleep, limiting options for healthy habits in diet and exercise? I would wager the average American routine pre Covid was way out of balance in those four key factors (stress, sleep, diet, and exercise).

This is a complex issue, and everyone’s situation is different.  If you find yourself working multiple jobs to put a roof over your head and food on the table, there are natural challenges to prioritizing well-being.  However, a lot of us have significant down time around a 40 hour work week, and even more if we find ourselves working from home when we used to commute, or are working reduced hours.

As a fitness enthusiast I want to always be in shape for whatever challenge may come. As a father of two young boys I want to have as many QALYs  as I can, where I can not only be there with them, but push them mentally and physically.  As a pilot who has to leave his family behind on a regular basis I’m constantly adjusting to family needs to balance work with QOL.

Your priorities, your ideas on wellness, happiness, and comfort, can be realigned at any time, and there is no time like the present. There is always room for better choices, better QOL, more QALYs, and some SerenityThroughSweat.

Thanks for joining me, stay safe and stay sweaty my friends.

Cowards

Thanks for joining me for another edition of the SerenityThroughSweat blog. As we move into mid June and into the fourth month of some form of reduced social contact due to COVID-19, I want to talk about fatigue.

In order to facilitate clear exchange of ideas and discussion (and because I had the  importance drilled in to me in AP Chemistry class in high school) I’m a big believer in taxonomy. Fatigue (as it will apply to this post and future discussions on the blog) is a physiological state of reduced physical or mental performance.

First stroller run with my new running buddy

Fatigue can be brought on in a number of different ways.  Since this in large part a fitness blog, fatigue in most of our discussions is brought on by physical exertion.  Touching on parenting and aviation, fatigue can be brought on by disrupted sleep patterns and stress. Fatigue can also be brought on by both too much mental stimulation as in a tough day at the office, but also by too little mental stimulation or a routine day at the office just monitoring the instruments share known as boredom fatigue.

This blog is filled with examples of physical exertion, and while most physical exertion leaves me energized and mentally and emotionally recharged (SerenityThroughSweat).  There are some debilitating days deliberately designed into the training plan, all alliteration aside.

First stroller run with Speedy (his name not my pace, I was fighting my legs the whole way)

As a pilot, I’ve had fatiguing days where lots of things went wrong and I was strained to keep everything together safely. I’ve also had days that were just as fatiguing, where it was smooth sailing but there instruments seemed to lull me to sleep.

One thing is certain, regardless of how fatigue develops and accumulates, it diminishes performance.  “Fatigue makes cowards of us all”, sometimes  attributed to General George Patton, and sometimes to Vince Lombardi, gets to the heart of the matter.

A snapshot of the last 14 days of mobility work on the overhead position

Again, taxonomy is important. Most of the time, coward is a derogatory term used for someone who lacks courage.  In the context of this post, it refers more to someone who lacks the will or ability, to do or endure unpleasant things.  While that is still somewhat on the derogatory spectrum, I think it is less offensive in that form and more of a temporary state of reality that we all find ourselves in from time to time.

Regardless of your profession or your predilection for physical exertion, we are all experiencing various stages of COVID-19 fatigue. Which also means, many of us are already, or are on our way to becoming, cowards.  Before you get defensive, remember this means lacking the will to do or endure unpleasant things.

I know I am personally tired of  social distancing, tired of being stuck inside, tired of not being able to do things with friends and family that I otherwise would. I’m saddened by the loss of life, the economic hardship, and the stress that Covid-19 brings.  Since Florida has re opened, it has seen new records three days in a row for new Covid-19 cases.  It seems as though as a state, and in larger part as a society, we have lost the will to endure the unpleasantness required to combat this pandemic.

The good news is, cowardice does not have to be a permanent character trait, but rather can be limited to a temporary state. Regardless of what unpleasantness we may find ourselves unwilling, or unable to endure, there will always be sources from which we can draw strength and bravery, to combat our own fatigue and cowardice. I hope that you have many such sources in your life, and I’m honored if this is one of them.

Thanks for joining me, stay safe and stay sweaty my friends.

Duty

Thanks for joining me for another edition of the SerenityThroughSweat blog.  I often think about what it is to be a man and what it is to be a father, specifically through the lense of communicating that message to my boys, early and often.  And while the answer is nebulous and is something of a moving target, the search for the “answer” seems to always give me something I needed in that moment.

Obviously COVID-19 has dominated the news cycle and most of our thoughts recently.  It’s hard to find even the simplest of tasks that hasn’t been affected at least in some way.  That said, the mission statement of men and father’s hasn’t really changed. Sure the circumstances are different but the mission remains steadfast.

El Duderino not a big fan of the face shield

Which brings me to duty.  In the movie gladiator, the General Maximus asks his servant Cicero, “Do you find it hard to do your duty”.  Cicero replies, “Sometimes I do what I want to, the rest of the time I do what I have to”.  This really spoke to me as father in these strange times.

I believe that in order to be effective at one you must be effective at the other.  The two go hand in hand.  You cannot do what you have to as a father without some balance of doing what you want to.  Likewise if you only ever do what you want to, the things you have to do will suffer.

Much bigger fan of “mixie” the cement truck

Obviously balancing the two is tricky even in the simplest of times, which has made the last few weeks even more complicated.  Too much focus on doing what you have to do, can be like trying to cut down a tree with a dull blade.  Although stepping away from the tree feels like abandoning your primary duty, you are sometimes better off to step away and sharpen the saw.

Steven Covey put forth this idea in his book 7 habits of highly effective people. Sharpening the saw can come in all sorts of shapes and sizes, but should cover physical, mental, emotional, and social aspects.

Sharpening the saw may seem like a luxury only for those with leisure time, but it is an important part of the duty of being a better man and a father.  I have always found that I am in a better mood, I think more clearly, and I make better decisions after I have trained, or completed some sort of task that would seen otherwise not mission critical.

While primary focus these last ten weeks has been on providing for the family and guiding them through these uncharted times, that has left an imbalance in doing what you have to vs. doing what you want to. The shutting down of so many activities due to COVID-19, especially ones with a social aspect, makes it ever more difficult for father’s to sharpen the saw in the same ways that they would have before.

In ever changing and difficult times the duty remains, and is more important than ever. It’s vital to remember that a part of that duty is keeping your tools sharp, and in the case of Serenity Through Sweat activities, doing what you want to, and not just what you have to will make you a better husband, father and person.

Simple and sinister

Thanks for joining me, stay safe and stay sweaty my friends.

This week’s SerenityThroughSweat, sharpening the saw with sewing, swings, and stroller runs. All alliteration aside, stay home status is starting to stagnate